Times like these make me wonder why my faith isn’t stronger! I allow these things to happen to me and it just brings me down. I try not to let it hurt me or get to me but it always does for some reason. I need to “let go and let God”. This is something that I have been struggling with and I feel like with every bad thing that happens in my life it is pulling me further and further from God and I want it to do the opposite! Reading the book Sun Stand Still…has made me what to have an “audacious faith” like what Pastor Furtick talks about. I want others to see God through me and I want to not let the little things in my life that seem to not be going my way to not show, for them to roll off my shoulder and for me not to think about them anymore. But instead to leave them in God’s hands.
I have been struggling trying to find the guy that God wants me to spend the rest of my life with. I can’t seem to find any good Christian guys who want to take the time to get to know me. I am slowly losing faith that there is a guy out there for me. I don’t want this to happen. I pray that god will take the worry out of my life and that the right one will come along when the time is right. I pray that he will give my patience until then because it is so hard to be around friends and they all have someone but me, it kinda sucks.
So this is my prayer that God will give me patience and strength to make it through these hard times right now and he will put people in my life who will help me to cope. I want to feel loved and I shouldn’t need this from a guy as much as I would love that. I pray that God will show me his will for my life and i will follow it! <3
Linds
There are times when i think that my life could be so much better. I think about the future..did i make the right decision in choosing Special Education? Wanting to be a teacher is not something that I have always wanted to do but I love children especially the children that everyone else looks down on. People think that there is not much that can be done for children with Special Needs, but this is not true; all they want is to be loved. This is something that I know I can do. I want to make a difference in their lives. I know that God is calling me to Special Education and this is what he wants me to do with my life. I know that I won’t make a lot of money but all I ask is that I am able to support myself. I don’t need the nicest things, just need the necessities. I know that God will provide for me if I just trust in Him. Therefore, I am going into the field of Special Education with an open mind, all my trust in God and faith that everything will be alright!! <3
Linds
There are so many things that I have prayed for in the past weeks; my parents, my brother and sister, finding Godly friends, getting my relationship where it should be with God. So many things and Im just taking one at a time. The one that has been on my heart and actually changing my life is the friends that I am making in SAO. The girls are amazing and I could not have asked God to put better girls into my life. They are exactly what I have been praying for and the support that I need at this point in my life. So although I have been really sad about my sister being in Costa Rica I have found comfort in knowing that I have about 64 new sisters in Christ! <3
1 Corinthians 13:13
“ But now, this is what the Lord says
he who created you, O Jacob,
he formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name;you are mine.
When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
For I am the Lord, your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush and Seba in your stead.”
Isaiah 43:1-3
I have so many things running through my head these days of problems that I am stressing about and I have no idea why. God tells us not to worry about tomorrow….why do I then? There are so many things that I want to fix, but in reality who am I to fix anything. Its all in His hands. Having friends is something that I have struggled with this year. I feel like I have lost all of my close friends and I am always alone. I have come to realize that I am never alone because I have God. He will always he here for me and this is something that I have been falling back on everyday. It gives me a peace to know that the only person that really matters that I have by my side, IS!!! My faith is something that I am constantly working on and now I think that it might actually be growing stronger. Phillipians 4:13
I have really been struggling with my sister being in a totally different country than me. I never really felt as close to her as I did this past year and now all of that is gone. I miss her more than she knows. Plus I never get to see my brother anymore either because he is at home alone living with what was my parents but now they are getting a divorce. idk what i am going to do. I wish i could be the grown up in this situation and get my brother out of that situation but i cant. So I hope that he knows that i love him and will always be here for him. God has helped me through some tough situations before and I know he will be here for me now, I just need to have faith. <3
“ I can do everything through Christ that gives me strength! Phillipians 4:13
